Here I am. 5:30 am and I’m awake with a tummy ache; thank-you delicious salmon alfredo pasta. Side note – can you tell I work with kids? I just said tummy. Before I go any further, it's story time. I spent last night out and about in town. We went for dinner, coffee then of course to a bar called Pump. With two long islands and two games of darts down we decided to head home. As we're walking towards the main street to catch a taxi, we see a taxi literally stop about ten, maybe fifteen, feet in front of us. We continue to walk, but as soon as I saw that taxi's light turn on I knew we were in business. Through the window, I could see the passenger hand the cab driver money. In my tipsy state of mind I decided to book it to the cab. No one was getting this taxi, but US! So I ran with my hand in the air towards the taxi. The passenger opens his door and starts to get out of the cab. The next thing I know, as this man turns to leave the cab I'm right in his grill. As you can guess, he was pretty startled to see a person in his face. He immediately did this with his hands and made this face:
I of course start laughing and say, "I just want this cab." He replies by saying "high-five." We exchange high-fives and go our separate ways. Looking back, the person was an older Korean man...so maybe he didn't say high-five. I gave him one anyway.
Another week down at the job and it feels good. For some reason, the weeks here tend to fly by. I don’t know why, but they just do! I finally posted the few pictures I brought with me from home in my apartment. It feels good to see some familiar faces everyday! I'm working hard at TEFL, well trying too. I have plans to go to Caffé Bene later to try and work more. I really need to stay motivated with this one. This is the prime reason why I only took one on-line course; I’m just not motivated enough to sit down and do the work. Plus, it’s really freaking boring. I definitely have more to say, but seeing how it’s only 6:18 am and I’m tired again, I need to jump on this opportunity of drowsiness and try to sleep. BRB.
Ok, I’m back. I never fell asleep, but I did watch Fried Green Tomatoes. I forgot how much I enjoy this movie. It’s a good one; I suggest watching this one. To Wanda!!! It’s 9:45 am and I’m currently at Caffé Bene ready to go. Unfortunately, nothing is going my way. For some reason the wireless is not working. I’m connected, but nothing. Why is it every time I am ready to sit down and work nothing really goes as planned? I mean really?! I was just here a few weeks ago to kill time. My battery was full of life and I had all five bars of internet. Not one problem.
Monday January 24th, 2011 will be my 25th birthday. God, I feel like I’m getting old. I will be 25 years old and all I can think about is what I haven’t done. I’m damn near thirty and I feel like I’ve done nothing with my life. I’ve just been. I slowly feel my time and youth being sucked out of me. I can’t help but think of the future and where my life will go. What will I do when I leave Korea? Will I go back to school? Will I get a big person’s job? Ok, yes you’re right; I’m being a little dramatic, but I find myself pondering these thoughts fairly often. What have I done with my life, how have I contributed to this world, what will I be when I leave Korea? I absolutely hate that I do this. I never stop and just enjoy today. I’m always thinking of what will be. I remember being in middle school and how I was so over 7th grade. I couldn’t wait to start high school and surround myself with a more mature crowd. Of course, once I saw how high school was, I started thinking, man I can’t wait until college.
From the time your young you’re asked, “What do you want to be when you grow up”? The time you spend in high school is solely spent on figuring out what you will do with your life/preparing for college. The time spent in college is no different. You are preparing for “adult” life; that fancy job, a spouse and yes, of course kids. I just feel we are trained to always look to the future; into what will happen instead of enjoying where we are right this very instant. Well, I’m done. I’m tired of always looking into the future and wondering what will become and what I will do. I don’t want to obsess over the future anymore. I want to enjoy now. So, this is my birthday gift to myself. I promise to stop worrying myself with what will happen and just trust myself and the decisions I make. I’m going to enjoy Korea and every day I have on this earth. I’m no longer going to wonder what I will do, but instead make sure I’m contributing to this earth in a positive way. I will continue to volunteer and help those in need. I will actively try to be the best person I can. Everything will work out and if it doesn’t, well that’s ok too. I’ll figure it out when the time comes.
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